And you know what? I totallymissed the day with the craziest traffic. 😥 It was like two days ago or something, and that day I had o-v-e-r 300 readers! That’s insane. I’ve never had that many visitors in one day… I-n-s-a-n-e!
Hopefully some of those surfers fell in love with me and my heated words and will keep coming back for more. This is all for you, you know… I do it all for you. I love you. You guys complete me. You fill the empty space in my heart and give me a sense of… value. 🙂
A couple of hours ago I was sitting on the train with my friends F and J. They were texting. With their loved ones. Cooing away with “see you soon”s and “kisses and hugs” and probably a “I’m gonna sex you up” or two.
Usually I get all mooshie and go like “Aaawww, Love! It’s sooo beautiful! Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!”
Today was diffrent though. I actually felt a sting of bitterness for not having a lover to text… I’m not used to that sensation at all.
Of course I cried out my discontent loudly on the train and then (further embarrassing J) I sang A song for those who never find someone with my saddest tone of voice. It was simply a heartbreaking performance! Then continuing my victorious evening on the train I pondered over the strangeness of how this fantastic creature (that’s me) could still be single. I mean come on! Who would not want to date the cute singing lady on the train..?
Tonight I’ve been translating comics for the fanzine I’m making for the Angoulême comics festival.
Well, I did actually have almost all of the translation work done allready since I translate everything I post here on the blog. Convenient!
So this page (below) was the only one I hadn’t allready written en anglias.
I beleive I have a really stupid way of re-texting…
I scan the original with the handwritten text in swedish. Then I erase the text with the stamp-tool in photoshop. After that I print it and write the english text by hand on the printed copy.
Then finally I scan the printed copy again.
I think people in general might be adding the text in photoshop somehow. Using layers or something… These are strange words and ways for me.
It must be about 7 years ago that I learned how to use the stamp tool in photoshop. Since then it’s the only tool I use… ’cause it’s the only tool I know… I just stopped in my photoshop-developement after the stamp tool. I should sit my self down some day and get down with all the layershajt n stuff… Blahch. Can’t be bothered right now.
I gotzzz workzzz 2 do… ‘n ahm sooo t-h-y-hjurrred… glllrrbbllll…
(she turns off the lights, crawls down under the covers… then a soft whisper, barely hearable, shivers in the darkness. Her voice is so thin now, but still she can’t hold it back anymore. They’ve been reading her blog, leaving comments and sending her e-mails and now she just has to say it; “h-h-hey you guys..?
This is the title page for a comic about an obsession.
In this drawing I wanted her (me) to meet her (my) doom smiling. Yyyyeeeessss, she knew veeery well that there would be pain and suffering up on that cross… but without it, how could she know joy and pleasure? hm? hm? hmmm?
(I also wanted to suggest that I am The Lord, Your Savior. Obviously.)
And then I thought it’d be cool to direct your subcontious mind toward ritualistic magic too. Therefor I chose the five pointed star as her “cross” (and then I stabbed her in the heart with a f-cking knife! Haha!).
Whenever I pass a window or a mirror nowadays I can’t help but to stop and stare at my reflection. My hair is just sooo perfect.
New years eve for me, was ‘Moa and Carros eve’. From this day forth I will count the two of them as members of my extended family. Love I wish upon thee and the thine, unto you all my dearest comrades a joyuos life! (eh… awkward sentence… guess ahm still a li’l drnk from the chmpayin…)
Also noteable: this dress, which I bought for tonight, was n-o-t made for dancing (yes. I danced in it anyway. and yes. there were parts showing that was n-o-t suposed to show), so I’m glad I stayed in with my extended family all night instead of roaming the streets of this godforsaken town (ahm, I don’t consider this town to be godforsaken… I wrote that ’cause it sounded good… I actually really like Malmö, I think I might even be… in love with Malmö).
There were only two exceptions to my stay-in-night.
At a quarter to twelve we went up on the roof to see the fireworks and also, before that, we went down to the canal to burn our magic notes spread the ashes over the water and plant seeds for the coming year.
We all spat on the planted seeds, which is called giving an organic gift, (a sort of sacrifice) to the holy mother earth. The spitting-part was instigated by Leez who represented the element of fire in our circle.
Fire is energy directed, leadership, the ability to start and keep things burning with energy. This is the element I was born in, but not the element I represented last night.
Anyhow, I’d told Lizzie about the organic gift-part and she really seemed to enjoy the idea of it so when we stood in our magical circle outside under the full moon by the canal she came up with the idea to water our planted seeds with an organic gift of saliva. Haha, it was so perfect! We’re the best group ever! (I know exactly who’s who of us in the Adams family…)
Then we sang the song “Hela familjen går ut med geten”, a song chosen by M and J who represented the water element with T. Water is related with playfulness, the inner child, spontaneity and emotions, so their choice of song was not the least bit surprising. ^_^
The air element in our circle was held by C. Air is related with the mind, planning, logical thinking and adulthood. It was interesting that C had the voice of reason through out the whole ceremony, she truly was her element.
A role that suits me well in these sort of gatherings.
Then I had prepared a treasure hunt for Moa (it was her birthday) with clues leading to new clues leading to her birthday gifts!
We played the”If you were”-game and hide-and-seek and when serving the desert I lit some sort of cake fireworks to put in it which of course set off our firealarm… T saved the day by fanning away the smoke with some old t-shirt or something. Later on when Thorb had gone on to another party, we sat in a circle again and held a thanksgiving for the year that has passed. I thanked for having found friends like L and J, how they feel more like siblings than friends.
All in all it was one of the best (if not THE best) New years eve’s I’ve had.
Above in the title I wrote the seeds which I chose to plant for this coming year. The travels will begin with a trip to Angouleme and Paris for a comics festival late in january and then me and my sister will be saving up some dough to go to New Orleans next fall. NJUÅÅÅRLINS!!!