it’s all good!
Tomorrow I’ll upload some photos of my progress with the sketches for the book. I am free from troubles and uncertainties now. I can see clearly now and I feel happy again.
Manic depressive? Me? ahm… a tad bit perhaps… hehe… but the depressive part of it passes surprisingly quick nowadays! 🙂
So right now I simply feel blessed (not bitter or weak at all!^^) to have all my time and energy to spend on my own project. Relationships can wait a year or so. No strings. Just me and my work.
I don’t feel very strong right now.
A strange feeling has come over me.
I feel like… shit and crap and dirt.
I’ll be cheerfull soon again. Maybe tomorrow. But for tonight I’m just… broken down.
Pathetic and sad.
I just want someone to fix me. Right now. Please someone, just come over here right now and put your arms around me. Make me feel whole again. take away this hurt inside. I need hands, strong firm hands on my body. Arms to surround me. Hold me tight. Tighter.
But as the great ones say: This too shall pass.
Nobody can cry forever.
And I’m not even crying. Just slowly rocking back and forth over the keyboard. Feeling like shit and crap and dirt. Listening to Coldplay. Watching Chris’ face. Such sadness there and honesty. Every word true.
This makes me feel better though. Words of wisdom. I love Dwight.
Life is about learning how to dance in the rain. It may be stormy and cloudy. We may be in or out of the money. Come rain or come shine.
When you’re standing alone on a dewy meadow, a soft rain trickles on your face. The smell of wet grass and summer nights fill up your entire being. That’s when I hope you dance. I hope you let your toes just barely touch the green underneath you as you sway in the dark under millions of stars.
Only you and nature.
In the eternal
dance. *deep sigh*
I’ve been to Copenhagen, the Preacher-illustrator-guy had his Preacher-originals at home (or was that just his way of trying to get me to come to his place..? haha, Am I being too cynical?) so I said he has to get them for the next time we come for a visit.
We ended up in Kristiania after lunch. Spent a long night with the best of comrades. ^_^
I love you guys!
Tomorrow I’ll probably write something about my progress with the book. Yeah. probably… I LOVE you! haha, I’m wasted… Oh yeah, and Lisa from year one at CAS is moving in with me! She’s awesome. 😀
Oh! That’s right, did I mention I LOVE YOU?! heh. À demain mes amis… à demain.