In this drawing I wanted her (me) to meet her (my) doom smiling. Yyyyeeeessss, she knew veeery well that there would be pain and suffering up on that cross… but without it, how could she know joy and pleasure? hm? hm? hmmm?
(I also wanted to suggest that I am The Lord, Your Savior. Obviously.)
And then I thought it’d be cool to direct your subcontious mind toward ritualistic magic too. Therefor I chose the five pointed star as her “cross” (and then I stabbed her in the heart with a f-cking knife! Haha!).
I was also thinking about the classic “man”-drawing by Da Vinci . But since there ain’t no man better ‘n me (04.44 in the vid), this is a clear improvement of that motif!
Panel one: I asked for a man who could drive me crazy.
Panel two: I was tired of easy guys. The last one made me sick. He was, you know… mucky.
Panel three: Second “date”. Oh god… Hes crawling before me. Extinguishes himself.
Panel four: Disgusting.
Panel five: Then He Came
Panel six: He just shot a glance. Then he went cold. Cold. Airy. Walks away. Doesn’t chase me.
Panel one: He doesn’t wanna sleep with me. I love it.
Panel two: All of a sudden he smiles at me. He smiles! At me!
Panel three: Ah… Better than sex…
Panel four: Then. He. Shuts. Of. And… I…
Panel five: thirst. Want to have.
Panel six: WaNt. wANt. Want. wAnt. waNt. wAnT.
Panel one: His dissociation is telling me that he wants something more. Stronger. Greater. Like the sun and the mountains.
Panel two: He’d never pretend just to have someone… Would never settle for anything less than the most beautiful.
Panel three: I want to be His! No one elses! Only his!
Panel four: It could be that it’s just me he doesn’t want…
Panel five: But… that would be… weird. I have a hard time accepting that possibility.
Panel six: I mean, I would give him everything Everything Everything Everything
Okay, I’m totally translating in some sort of living dead state right now. I was up all night again working. I think I’ll translate the last page 2-morrow for you guys.
But the content goes something like “I love the thrills he gives me”.
Je suis très fatigué maintenant… a demain mes amis.