The day after this (thursday) I went to Astrid & Aporna to get lunch. When I was about to enter I saw him sitting right by the entrance with a bunch of our mutual friends.
I had a milli-second of confusion and uncertainty rush through my mind. Should I just turn around? But I couldn’t have done that… That would have been weird.
He saw me too. I noticed his reaction. Kind of uncomfortable. A touch of… was it fear of confrontation? yeah, something like that, flickered over his face.
I said hi.
He said hi.
So… I can say hi… That’s good.
I went up to the counter, ordered my lunch, sat down there and watched them all from a distance as I waited for my food.
It’s weird, that there’s a person in my life who feels uncomfortable with my presence… Weird.
But it was still nice to see him.
I couldn’t stop smiling. That longing warm smile, you know… Like when you’re standing on a cliff looking at the ocean. A calm and a longing, both sensations in me at the same time.
I’m still thankfull for it all though.