Have I neglected thee my sweet?

People are fragile things, I should know by now. n’ be carefull what I put them through.

But still… It takes two to tango, as the saying goes. And I can say that I’ve never intentionally hurt anyone.

Petra moved out today. A new girl is moving in tomorrow. Weird. I really liked having Petra in the house. She has such a mellow and warm aura. She’s a loving-kindness-type of person. She just wanted everybody to get along… Reminded me so much of my ex, B…

He was a good man. There are good men out there. But… I don’t want a good man. I don’t deserve a good man.

“He’s a good man, loves his mama, loves music and comic books too. I’m a bad girl, ’cause I don’t even miss him. I’m a bad girl for breaking his heart. And I’m free… free fallin'”

I’ll just keep on keeping on until my well runs dry. I’ll wear my heart on my sleeve and fall in love and get hurt again and again and then I’ll take my pen in hand and draw my heart out again and again and again.

I accept changes in my life. I feel like I’ve let go so many times now that I don’t fear losing people anymore. There are so many people in this world… So many places. So many lives. And mine’s just started. I feel free. Alive. Complete. Independent.

The only one person I couldn’t bear loosing is Ulrika. Without her my world would fall apart.

In conclusion I’ll let Lady Sovereigns words ring true in your ears:

Love me or hate me, It’s still an obsession. (Thnx Lisa)

Love her or hate her, it’s still an obsession, you know…

It’s a lot smarter to forgive than to hate.

Let yourself heal.

Be kind and mellow, even to those who call you their enemy.

I will always choose goodness.

Tillägg: ironiskt att jag postar ett inlägg direkt efter detta där jag är obetänksam och ond. Det är borttaget nu. Men ändå. Ibland är jag för självupptagen för mitt eget bästa. Tragiskt. Jag vill vara god. Hjälp mig att vara god.

4 thoughts on “Have I neglected thee my sweet?

  1. Åhh min fina frida, I’m with you sistah!

    “I accept changes in my life. I feel like I’ve let go so many times now that I don’t fear losing people anymore. There are so many people in this world… So many places. So many lives. And mine’s just started. I feel free. Alive. Complete. Independent.” Jag är på väg dit jag med. Vi lär oss! Kärlek

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