I just re-watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Then me and Lisa (my sweet and lovely roomie) had a bit of a girl talk.
She’s an interesting person.
I really enjoy talking to her.
Is this my life? Will it allways be like this? Changing places, meeting new people, finding that I really like them, letting myself feel comfortable and safe with them.
And then leaving.
It’s like in that film we saw tonight.
Things change, but I’m allways gonna be the same. Can’t really move away from who I am.
I’m allways gonna fall in love with the same man over and over again. Even if they’re all completely different from each other, they’re still… the same… hm.
Allways gonna hang out with the same kind of cool girlfriends over and over again too, allways gonna lean against the same kind of sweet guy-friends.
Maybe I’ll allways end up leaving it all too. Just to prove again and again that I can recreate myself.
This poem is about being alone.
Alone with the sea
Alone with the wind
Alone with the tear from the gloss of my eye
It sweeps through the loneliness like a breeze
It shines in the glaze of sadness like a sea
Why am I destined to be alone
och så har jag tecknat tåren så klart.